• Faith,  Fear,  Holy Spirit,  Hope,  Love,  Relationships

    How to Love Difficult People, Vol 1

    As I was praying and meditating on my next blog, I knew I wanted to write about how to love difficult people. The “Volume 1” in the title of this blog helps drive the point, that there is no one catch-all answer to this ubiquitous question. One great illustration of this comes from one of my favorite players in comedy, Tina Fey. She wrote and produced a show called “30 Rock.” In this show, she created a character named Kenneth Parcell. The TV show is about a woman (Fey) who is a writer for an NBC late-night comedy show. Kenneth is a page, known for his unrelenting optimism and an…

  • Faith,  Family,  Motherhood,  Relationships,  Stress

    Blessings Un-Disguised

    I love October—the beautiful colors of the changing leaves, pumpkin doughnuts readily available in stores, cooler temps that mean I can finally wear my cute jeans and sweaters, pumpkin doughnuts, apple picking with the family, pumpkin doughnuts…. Plus, some of the best things in my family’s lives have happened in October. My husband proposed to me in October, our anniversary and several family birthdays are celebrated this month, and both houses we’ve lived in were bought in October. It seems to be our month.  But although it’s in the same spot on the calendar each year, October sneaks up on me and causes me to panic. Every. Single. Year. It…

  • Faith,  Love,  Relationships

    Fully Known

    Well, this is not what I wanted to write about for my first entry. Why? Probably because I didn’t want to be fully known. I didn’t want to have all my brokenness and imperfections and realness exposed to everyone. Again, why? Is it because I’m afraid of judgment? I’m ashamed or embarrassed? I have a “standard” as a Christian to uphold? Possibly. But I was divinely directed to take a 180 from what I was originally writing to tell you my story. Someone somewhere needs to hear it, and I am your vessel. I currently am in a relationship with a wonderful, God-fearing man for the past five years. Three…

  • Faith,  Hope,  Prayer

    You Knew Where I Left Me

    Have you ever been in worship and have a song just reach down to the depths of your soul and touch you? Like God was speaking those words right to you in such a sweet and intimate way? And then the next thing you know, you are a sobbing mess? I have had this happen to me many, many times, but this last one was paramount. This song, this moment somehow had taken all the brokenness, emotions, tears, and pain I had felt for the past year and put it all to words. Almost like I could have written this song…but I hadn’t. (’Cause, let’s face it, I do not…

  • Faith,  Hope,  Love,  Prayer

    Mirror Mirror

    This post has been so much harder to write. Probably because I am about to get more honest with you a lot sooner than I had intended. I had a list of topics I was ready to write about—lessons God has taught me that I hoped others could glean from. But as I set out to write those posts, the words just would not come. I couldn’t stop thinking about the journey that I have been on my whole life, learning to see myself as God sees me. I hope you will bear with me, as I’m about to get very real with you very quickly. Before I recommitted my…

  • Faith,  Fear,  Hope,  Love,  Pain

    Who Am I

    She said, “Here you are! Fill it out and bring it back when you finish.” Question one: “Name”… seems easy enough! Question two: “Family member’s names”… no biggie. Then I came to question three: “Use 6 words to describe yourself?” Sounds easy enough, right? Or is it? As I sat there I contemplated, ‘how vulnerable do I want to be?’, ‘what do I really want to share?’, ‘what if they judge me?’. Finally, I chose to describe myself with these words: wife, mother, dental hygienist, student, reader and compassionate. As I stared at the paper and reflected on what those words even meant, I found myself asking: how generic was…

  • Career,  Faith,  Fear,  Hope,  Prayer

    Worry Worshipper

    “God knows better than you what you need.” I felt like my head hit a wall after reading the above quote in my notes. My mind and heart were feeling discomfort; I had an instant headache and felt a quick, stabbing pain to the heart. I remember sitting on the couch, late in the evening. My husband was watching TV, and I was browsing through my phone. I was feeling anxious about finances, work, and my mile-long “to-do” list. I’m fairly certain I wouldn’t admit to being an anxious person until recent years. I always presumed my feelings of being overwhelmed came from placing too much stress on myself to be a high…

  • Blog,  Divorce,  Faith,  Fear,  Hope,  Loss,  Parenting

    Good Grief: Finding Hope At The End Of my Rope…

    As I sit in the cool night air, I am struck by the peace and calm of the insects singing all around me. This night seems to be in stark contrast to many of the nights that appeared to repeat in slight variations over the years. Grief is funny that way, and though I tried my best to ignore it both growing up and as an adult, the sadness of stolen moments just wouldn’t let me go. I know that every human being who has lived any significant amount of time will have experienced grief at some point. It always fascinates me how some people seem to heal quickly with…

  • Faith,  Family,  Hope,  Love

    Walking in the Wilderness

    Pastor Steven Furtick of Elevation Church once said, “If you don’t understand how far someone has wandered in the wilderness, you will never understand their excitement about their deliverance.” As I sit here, I see this beautiful and vibrant little boy who is my son. I see a wonderful man I get to call my husband. I see a cozy house I am blessed to call home. And most importantly, I have a God who I love with all of my heart and soul and who I know loves me, too. This picture could have been drastically different had I not listened to a few very important prompts from God.…

  • Faith,  Hope,  Prayer

    Guard Your Hope

    This blog post has been etched on my heart for many years, and I am so excited to share what I believe is a message every believer needs to hear. It’s a lesson the Lord reminds me of so often and is something that I have discussed with my friends and family at length over the years. So, I pray that you feel challenged and encouraged by what I feel the Lord wants you to hear today.   According to the Myers-Briggs personality assessment, I am an ENFP. I am the extrovert of all extroverts. I am enthusiastic, outgoing, spontaneous, impulsive, energetic, empathetic and, at times, spastic. God made me…