• Relationships,  Stress

    I’m So Hungover

    Okay, okay—for all of you who opened this up with shock and awe, and the word “sinner” came to mind, take a deep breath and relax. I’m not talking about that kind of hangover. Now that I’ve disappointed and lost about a third of you, let’s continue…. This is the kind of hangover only a minority of people understand or experience. I’m talking about the relentless headache, inability to concentrate, progressive irritability, severe exhaustion, muscle-tensing, stomach-churning, anxiety-ridden, self-silencing, extreme desire to be completely and utterly alone that an introvert experiences after they have “extroverted” too hard. This is the “introverted hangover.” And it is agonizing. We’ve probably lost another third…

  • Faith,  Fear,  Hope

    WAIT…What?!?

    Do you ever have those moments in life where you feel like you are headed in a specific direction, but you are still walking around feeling unsure of each step? Do you ever feel like you take a couple of steps forward with confidence and trust, just to find yourself sliding back into the chains of doubt and discouragement? For me, I’m finding that faith is kind of like stepping into the future blindfolded! On the one hand, you know that you are in good hands and that God IS good! You have seen His provision firsthand and felt His protection in times of trouble. You can look back on…

  • Faith,  Holy Spirit,  Relationships

    He is Everywhere

    Have you ever been somewhere, and you thought, “Oh, my God; God is really here”? You know, one of those moments or incidents where you can feel His presence, or something is shown to you that you can’t explain how or why. Some of us shrug it off and call them coincidences, while others grasp onto them, holding them for dear life, knowing it was God. I truly believe “coincidence calling” is either from fear or a lack of belief or doubt that God would be interested in our lives. I’ve noticed from my own “coincidence calling,” fear was the culprit. Fear of what others thought, fear that I was…

  • Faith,  Fear,  Holy Spirit,  Hope,  Love,  Relationships

    How to Love Difficult People, Vol 1

    As I was praying and meditating on my next blog, I knew I wanted to write about how to love difficult people. The “Volume 1” in the title of this blog helps drive the point, that there is no one catch-all answer to this ubiquitous question. One great illustration of this comes from one of my favorite players in comedy, Tina Fey. She wrote and produced a show called “30 Rock.” In this show, she created a character named Kenneth Parcell. The TV show is about a woman (Fey) who is a writer for an NBC late-night comedy show. Kenneth is a page, known for his unrelenting optimism and an…

  • Faith,  Family,  Motherhood,  Relationships,  Stress

    Blessings Un-Disguised

    I love October—the beautiful colors of the changing leaves, pumpkin doughnuts readily available in stores, cooler temps that mean I can finally wear my cute jeans and sweaters, pumpkin doughnuts, apple picking with the family, pumpkin doughnuts…. Plus, some of the best things in my family’s lives have happened in October. My husband proposed to me in October, our anniversary and several family birthdays are celebrated this month, and both houses we’ve lived in were bought in October. It seems to be our month.  But although it’s in the same spot on the calendar each year, October sneaks up on me and causes me to panic. Every. Single. Year. It…

  • Faith,  Love,  Relationships

    Fully Known

    Well, this is not what I wanted to write about for my first entry. Why? Probably because I didn’t want to be fully known. I didn’t want to have all my brokenness and imperfections and realness exposed to everyone. Again, why? Is it because I’m afraid of judgment? I’m ashamed or embarrassed? I have a “standard” as a Christian to uphold? Possibly. But I was divinely directed to take a 180 from what I was originally writing to tell you my story. Someone somewhere needs to hear it, and I am your vessel. I currently am in a relationship with a wonderful, God-fearing man for the past five years. Three…

  • Faith,  Hope,  Prayer

    You Knew Where I Left Me

    Have you ever been in worship and have a song just reach down to the depths of your soul and touch you? Like God was speaking those words right to you in such a sweet and intimate way? And then the next thing you know, you are a sobbing mess? I have had this happen to me many, many times, but this last one was paramount. This song, this moment somehow had taken all the brokenness, emotions, tears, and pain I had felt for the past year and put it all to words. Almost like I could have written this song…but I hadn’t. (’Cause, let’s face it, I do not…

  • Faith,  Hope,  Love,  Prayer

    Mirror Mirror

    This post has been so much harder to write. Probably because I am about to get more honest with you a lot sooner than I had intended. I had a list of topics I was ready to write about—lessons God has taught me that I hoped others could glean from. But as I set out to write those posts, the words just would not come. I couldn’t stop thinking about the journey that I have been on my whole life, learning to see myself as God sees me. I hope you will bear with me, as I’m about to get very real with you very quickly. Before I recommitted my…

  • Faith,  Fear,  Hope,  Love,  Pain

    Who Am I

    She said, “Here you are! Fill it out and bring it back when you finish.” Question one: “Name”… seems easy enough! Question two: “Family member’s names”… no biggie. Then I came to question three: “Use 6 words to describe yourself?” Sounds easy enough, right? Or is it? As I sat there I contemplated, ‘how vulnerable do I want to be?’, ‘what do I really want to share?’, ‘what if they judge me?’. Finally, I chose to describe myself with these words: wife, mother, dental hygienist, student, reader and compassionate. As I stared at the paper and reflected on what those words even meant, I found myself asking: how generic was…

  • Blog,  Holy Spirit,  Hope,  Pain,  Prayer

    From Desperation to Salvation

    This is probably going to be different from any of my other blogs, and I think that is okay. To be honest, I wasn’t very keen on writing this particular one so soon, as we are still getting to know each other, and one’s testimony can be very raw and vulnerable. However, as I kept pushing this subject out of my mind and brought other topics to the Lord, He impressed upon me that this was the one He wanted me to share. So, in obedience, here I am. Let me start by saying that I do not remember very much of my childhood. And I am not talking about…